Week Lessons

What we remember from childhood we remember forever — permanent ghosts, stamped, inked, imprinted, eternally seen.
— Cynthia Ozick

benignant \bih-NIG-nuhnt\, adjective:
1. Kind; gracious.
2. Beneficial; favorable.

More procrastination; I have to do law tomorrow an email my Professor otherwise I will lag behind. I still have another paper due next week. After class, Mike had nothing to do, but follow me downtown so I could run errands to get the eye shade and the timer. Thinking about the whole issue of hiding ourselves and the masques we put on, I asked him if he was the same person he was in private that he showed everyone. I asked this because I and some others do hide things from people. We’re complex and a lot more than we seem for various reasons. He says he is, and I believe him. He is very normal and very grounded. I don’t think we’re close friends. We can hang around one another because I’ve lately become the girl that has a lot of platonic guy friends. I spent more time with my guy friends now than I do with my female friends, with the exception of Alexandra who is ultra androgynous any way. I have always been able to the platonic guy thing, but I never get too close any way. I am very open to it any way.

Alexandra and I talked this evening, and I told her what’s been happening this week. I’ve been worried about a few people, but I’ve resigned myself to my helplessness in that area. I try to be there, and I try to remain strong for them to the best of my ability even if they really can’t see me. I’ve been learning a few things this week, about others and myself. It makes me appreciate my own strength, and how I have recovered at least for now.

My doctor called to tell me I need more vaccinations.

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