Long Weekend

My mosquito bites are quite big. I was one of the lucky ones as I have a few albeit large ones. A few others had bites on their hands and their ankles.

The weekend was fine overall. Everyone partied harder than me which I always regret not observing and taking part in, but I need sleep to function. I was self-conscious as I usually am in groups, but not as much as Poland. Still, no trip away from home can end without some emotional distress as I cried on the car ride home without either person in the front seats noticing. Ironically, they were both discussing their personal experience with panic attacks and anxiety disorders while I was crying in the back. I was uncomfortable and lonely for almost all five and half hours of the ride home. I am really glad to be back just to be out of that car.

I intended to go back to Toronto, but that did not happen of course. I went to H&M for the first time and I bought a hat and socks. The latter are too big because they were an impulse buy, and I didn’t look at the label. The hat fits my large head though. I wanted to buy this amazing peacoat, but it was not to be. I’ll see what happens because I want to go back as soon as I can. YJ has offered me a place to stay.

Some parts of the weekend made me doubt my ability to be active in the student organisation. It really is rough, and I think it may overwhelm me. I want to be more active this year, but I want to do a lot of things. For example, get into my dream grad school(s). I look forward to the day when I can tell the world “I am moving to (somewhere outside of Canada).” Ideally the line would end with England or even New York City. Oh, one can dream.

The reunion people forced me on Facebook.

I had it feeling I would succumb eventually.

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