Server

John the front manager and part-time actor and playwright, asked me at the beginning of today’s shift if I wanted to be a server. I hesitantly said because he wanted to know my long term plans. It’s been a hectic weekend. I worked most of friday and was at Justin’s for nearly ten hours yesterday. That party was really good towards the end. Anyway, I don’t know what it was but I actually sort of felt energized by today’s shift rather than bored or annoyed. It was busy; it is Canada’s Day after all. Maybe it was because there just John and I that I was able to be more involved. Time flew because of that, and maybe due to yesterday’s party and my dramatic feelings of this morning, I was a bit more disconnected. Also, people were all generally happy because today is a national holiday, and a long weekend. I’m sure that helped. All in all, it made me want to be a waitress. I do want to try and keep the job for as long as I can so I can have money. I still don’t care about the job enough that I’d bit alright if they fired me. This is good as I need to be disconnected from jobs I know aren’t going to be life altering. I do like that it seems to give me a workout. I hate looking at what customers give for tips though. Everyone else ends up judging them, and I can’t help but find myself doing the same so automatically and vehemently. I try to look away from the credit card slip. I’m generally tolerant of everyone there. I have most issue with the regular cook and manager, but I ignore him almost all the time.

Who knows what will happen. I say yes, they can talk behind back as they do with everyone else, so it doesn’t matter in the end. I start summer school this week, and I’m just trying to take it all one step at a time. In fact, I’m not even preparing for school this week. I go on Wednesday and that’s it.

Before work, I spent some time today watching the Diane & Me Concert that the two Princes organized. It’s very odd because as a Canada Day, we sucked in comparison. It was 10′C for most of the day, and there was no one at Parliament Hill by the looks of the CBC. I wanted to be in London more than anything. But what else is new? No, seriously, I’ve really made progress in the last few months of accepting that is not where I am headed after I graduate in the spring. Where am I headed? No idea. Vancouver at this rate. I’ll try to make it out there.

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